I am here in New Mexico and that is enough. The rest remains in the hands of the One who generates real emotion and passion. I expect more from Him than what I know cannot come from me. I won’t limit my expectations in an effort to avoid disappointment. I shift my focus and cast off restraint when it comes to looking to God to do abundantly above and beyond all I could ask or think. It”s not up to me to make this “move” meaningful.
We moved on a desire and trust it to make room for a new revelation of Christ. Desire carves out space for Him to rush into. The act of desiring is the act of preparing and emptying out a new spot for Him to fill. Through desire I see my greater need. Desire seems to arise out of a need with the sole purpose of being able to receive Him as the true supply. A new desire becomes the next new place in me that He intends to flood.
A desire seems to call Him into my awareness. To recognize a desire and to see its fulfillment is to see a new manifestation of my union with Christ. Every true desire of my heart is Christ longing to be Himself in me. To sit with the desire (allowing it to blossom) is to make room for His expression in me, as me.
To take hold of the new means I must let go of the familiar. For every perceived loss there is an equal or greater gain. Fruit is born out of death; God makes a statement by taking loss and turning it to gain. He reveals Himself in the earth of my life through a seedling of desire and His image is reflected in the fruit that is born. He is my surrender…all the way to the point of true reflection. He supplies the energy and drive. I remain still in the midst of His motion.
Humility is taking Christ as identity and receiving all of heaven thereby. Desire is born of God; I know I cannot transform myself. At best, I can rearrange life and pretend its real change when it is not. I can alter external environment but only Christ can alter spiritual scenery. He opens my eyes to see the green and the lush as it springs forth.
Flowers are growing and lining the pathways of my life. I am like a cracked pot who drips water; I feel flawed – but I will see that every drop of water is creating a bright spot in the earth around me. Bearing fruit is not my strain or struggle. It is a natural occurrence for one who abides in the Vine. I see the fruit that is already born. The already ripened fruit is being shaken off and the “greater harvest” is up to Him…
Oh My GOD! I am up in the wee hours of the night and ‘susan’ comes to my heart. I come to see if there is any new postings and am not disappointed! This makes me cry! Truly! Truly! Truly!
“I REMAIN STILL IN THE MIDST OF HIS MOTION!!!!!”
That says it all! That is all we must do! BE STILL!!!!
and KNOW THAT I AM GOD!
I thank the Lord AGAIN for ‘moving you’ to come here with the preciousness of HIS WORDS! Thank you Lord and thank you Susan . . .
Hey there, I miss you…good to hear from you and thank you for the encouragement. I just said to myself, “I miss Claudia” and there you are! God is good, faithful, and that which keeps the airwaves open and connected! Love ya!
Hey Susan,
as always I am loving your heart and the way you put to paper. I always come away from every conversation with you, fresh in the truth that, He alone is the Hope and the mover of our lives. It’s because of His energy that I get up, dress up and show up each day. When I see Him… my joy is full! 😉
I Just re-read this, months later …. one thought came rushing to my mind; “Susan is the cracked pot of Calcutta”, I crack my own self up!
What I really mean to say is, each day is a very humbling day, when we live in the awareness of our brokenness and yet it is only in this awake state that we can be the hands of our Jesus, that we can walk the path as the good Samaritan, that we can move in the height of compassion. We are weak but He is strong. His water of life feeds all around us as He flows from our brokenness. You do have uncommon compassion Susan… I saw in your eyes the day we first met. You my friend have been serving in your Calcutta for quite some time now… The fruit is good to the eye and sweet to the taste!
… And so the paradox has the last word! We are flawed in our humanity but in Christ we are whole and complete!
You crack me up, too! 🙂
I like the way you paired humility and awareness. Awareness manifests our union with Christ, and exposes our inability to do or to be apart from Him. Awareness embraces humility and becomes the joy of being no one – so that He receives the glory for every good thing that comes through us. He is the sovereignty in me that accomplishes His own will. I can’t glory in a choice, practice, discipline, action, insight, or increase of any kind. He is the influencing agent in all things “Susan” and will work it all together to bring forth His completion in me, as me. The good, the bad, and the ugly parts are all “His” to shape and mold. To finally see this makes it easier to let go of judgment and self hatred. He orchestrates my circumstances and gets exactly what He needs from each one. I rest in trust…