Undivided Trust
Forgiveness makes me feel better, regardless of the response. Forgiveness, like love and respect, is unconditional. I forgive because it is who I am; it has nothing to do with merit. Even trust is without contingence (although I was taught that trust is earned). I trust simply because I feel better when I do – determining that trust, like love, is a part of who I am. If my trust is abused, I trust on… remaining in agreement with my true being. The way I see it, everybody wins – I’m true to myself, and the trust I extend is more likely to draw out the best in others. It’s a matter of faith – I trust God with my heart therefore I’m not afraid to give it away.
To clarify, I unconditionally trust CHRIST. I trust Him in me and in you; my position is anchored to my view of union. Trust is easy when I view all things in Christ. If your words or actions cause me pain then heightened trust will find the good. I can trust Christ even if He is not overtly obvious. I believe in the divine spark or the measure of faith that’s been given to all men. I trust Christ as the all in all and trust Him to ignite the spark in others. I trust with Christ’s own trust and extract His presence from unusual places. This trust is linked to God. I trust God alone…therefore I trust everything else.
Undivided trust finds the good. Painful occurrences become vital catalysts for taking needed steps. I’m hindered only when I judge an action (judgment severs trust) and lose sight of Love”s bigger message. God intends to save me from the illusion of separation – even if it hurts. When Love speaks through hurtful situations He may be asking me to repent, or to get over myself; He may be asking me to love hilariously or to set a much needed boundary; or He may even be asking me to courageously walk away from an abusive relationship. In any event, I can trust without condition that what is occurring is exactly what is needed to purify this vessel.
Discernment is not nullified; however a suspicious mind is often dubbed “discernment” while fear and faithlessness go undetected. Trusting Christ remains the key. Even my world view changes with this kind of trust. I fear less knowing that nothing gets to me that doesn’t first pass through God. Everything works for the good. God gets bigger in my eyes and His generous outlook becomes my own. Worldly attempts at security or self-protection are put to rest as I nestle into the truth that God is in control. Life is simpler, I am happier, and freedom of movement is accompanied by peace and joy.
I’m enjoying the exploration and the journey. By the way, thanks, Claudia, for the term “undivided trust.” Not only have I pondered it regarding trusting God “no matter what” but it fits with what the Lord is speaking in me regarding relationships with others…