Turmoil occurs because the soul believes she is the crux of my being. The soul is like waves in the sea, tossed by changing winds of doctrine. She is not the wind, nor the gravitational pulls that cause a tide to rise and fall. She is simply a responder and expresser of that which influences her. With proud thinking she mimics the authenticity of the spirit. She struggles to make peace with the world’s view – forgetting that the real me is dead to it and has no need to conform to its image. When the soul is influenced by memories of a false and fallen self she continues to crave the trivialities of the world. She clamors for position and longs for recognition, but the true self knows herself beyond such limiting needs.