Seasonally Undefined
I’m still exercising the freedom to be seasonally undefined. I’m born to be who Christ has chosen to be in me; being me is the highest form of gratitude I can give to Him. I’ve had difficulty knowing just who this ‘me’ is. I’ve melded into others like a chameleon. Coming into my own is liberating, albeit confusing. I think that’s why He keeps giving me permission to be ‘no one.’ We’re starting with a blank canvas so I can identify my own color palette, and then use it to express myself in myriad ways.
I’m endeavoring to see myself, others, and all of life from the Father’s view. I see many expressions of One Christ – with no lines of discrimination. Jesus said, “If you’ve seen me, you’ve seen the Father.” In Him, I embody the same paradoxical union. More circles…it’s not a me story, it’s a God story…and yet, in many ways, it’s about no one else but me.
He is convincing me that ‘I’ am what makes my life worth living. To receive myself is to receive the only gift I can ever give to others. I cannot give who I wish I were or who I try to be. I can only give you me. During the last few years I have had to find, receive, and employ my own know-how for living, and in the process I am finding that I am my own reward.
Receiving myself eradicates the feeling that anything is missing in my life. I’m my own missing link and the only gift I can keep on giving. Here’s my point… before receiving myself, I could not be a self for others; now that I have, I can be nothing less! I’ve come undone…and found wholeness. Paradox and circles…you gotta love ’em!